Today, Dean and I went for the scan to check that everything is still proceeding normally, and hopefully to peer between the zergling’s legs and find out if the little munchkin is a boy or a girl. I keep giggling about that Monty Python sketch where the mom asks if it’s a boy or a girl only to be told by the doc that it’s a bit early to be imposing roles on it (you can watch here and skip to about the 3 minute mark for the line).
I will start all my deep and meaningful thoughts about how to raise this child and what gender means and all those things at a later date. Today, I am simply far too happy. I got to see my little girl today.
That’s right, I’m having a baby girl and her name will be Harley. She is still incredibly shy for the camera, preferring to face backwards instead of showing us her face, but I don’t even mind. I got to see her hands in front of her face, and her back and that little bum as she turned and moved in there. I got to be reassured that she it looking totally healthy and normal, smack bang in the middle of where her weight and growth should be.
Harley weighs 210 grams right now, which is about as much as restaurants give you for a “ladies’ steak” – that’s ridiculously tiny! She is my little girl and I just can’t stop grinning. It feels so much more real now. I can imagine her as a human instead of some strange creature who is simply residing in my body for the next bunch of months. She is a GIRL. I’m going to be a mommy to a girl and l absolutely can’t wait.
Strangely (or not so strangely), I am so excited to see how she gets Dean wrapped around her finger. I can’t wait to see them bond, to see how he wants to do everything in this world to protect her. I can’t wait to see my little Harley, to meet her, to read her books and make her laugh. I can’t wait to hold her in my arms and introduce her to the world. She is going to be a very special kind of princess, and I just can’t wipe the grin off my face thinking of her.
See you soon, Harley Wednesday (or Arizona depending on the debate) Hawkins!